One year ago today was the worst day of my life.
J had an anaphylactic reaction and I had a miscarriage.
Just writing it down again like that sounds so harsh. But it was harsh. It was scary, shocking and heartbreaking. Yet, one year on, I can appreciate the positive things that have come out of that day.
It has given me a better understanding and appreciation for J’s allergies and made me more vigilant and vocal about his needs. It was reassuring to see how quickly the adrenaline pen worked and I know we would not hesitate to give it again.
Luckily, although he has had various allergic reactions, he has not had another anaphylactic one since. Unfortunately, that doesn’t mean the risks have subsided so avoiding his allergens is an ongoing challenge.
We have also ended up in hospital a few times with asthma attacks which are scary in themselves but can also exacerbate any allergic reaction if not well managed. J is on new medication now though which I hope will improve the situation.
Free From Farmhouse
J was physically well later that day and was luckily too young to let the experience stay with him. I, however, still struggle with the severity of the reaction and preventing it from happening again can sometimes feel overwhelming.
Starting this blog has been a great help though as it has let me process my thoughts, learn more about allergies and anaphylaxis and connect with other people in the same situation.
I also feel I am able to do something useful in raising awareness, rather than just feeling helpless, and it has grown into a positive part of my life.
My rainbow baby
Unfortunately my miscarriage didn’t go very smoothly and I ended up in hospital and had a slow recovery but amazingly, I fell pregnant again 4 months later.
Growing a new baby definitely helped me deal with the loss, although I didn’t feel I had total closure until I reached my original due date.
I am now 37 weeks’ pregnant and looking forward to welcoming my rainbow baby into the world anytime soon.
By the end of next month I will be a mum of two! That is an exciting and terrifying prospect but I can’t wait to complete our little family. I am anxious about baby #2 suffering from allergies but I know this time I will be more aware of the signs and more able to access the help I need. Although, fingers crossed, I have ordered a non-allergy baby – oh, and one that sleeps well too!
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