Before children, before marriage and a mortgage, I felt like my life was missing something.
I had fun, I had freedom but every time I heard the song ‘waiting for my real life to begin’ I would feel like I was still waiting.
Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon…
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin
This feeling was compounded when we were struggling to conceive for two years. I would look in the rear view mirror and the backseat would look so empty.
That view would made my heart ache.
Yesterday the song came on the radio again. I looked in the rear view mirror at my two beautiful babies and realised that real life is in full swing.
I haven’t slept in three years, my belly button will never look the same again and my face has more lines than my notebook but I feel grateful for all those things every day.
There were days I thought I’d never get here.
It’s hard, it’s tiring and it’s relentless. But I love it.